Today, I turned another year older. I'm thrilled to have spent a lot of today with my family and I'll be celebrating all weekend with friends, but the fact of the matter is, I'm absolutely terrified of growing older.
I have Peter pan syndrome. It affects more of us than we actually know. The fear of getting older. The crazy part is, I don't know necessarily what it is that I am scared of exactly. Maybe facing the real world? Making harder decisions? Choosing my career path? Maybe all of those, maybe none of them. I live in the moment and like to think one day at a time, so maybe it's just the future that scares me in general. I know it's childish and I'm not saying I don't want to be more responsible by all means no. I'm thrilled thinking about what the future holds. Finding a job, getting married, having a family. I love planning all of those individually so I guess the big picture is what gives me anxiety every time I think about it.
I turned 22 today. The fun and games will be coming to an end soon but today I realized, for how much anxiety it gives me, it's also somewhat of a relief. I need to move on and grow as a person. I guess even though I'm terrified of it, I like change. It helps me appreciate those around me more and what I have been blessed with.
So I guess, I'm scared out of my mind... but I'm excited. New adventures will be coming my way and I hope and pray that I can keep my mind open enough to accept them as they come and enjoy them.
So cheers to being old 22 mes amies! I want to thank you all for being so supportive of my blog and my passions. I really have enjoyed the time I've had with you all especially my loyal followers who always seem to put a smile on my face with e-mails and comments. I hope you continue on in my journey with me as I grow, and as my blog grows. My sincerest gratitude to you all. Now, If only there was a way for us all to share a bottle of champagne and toast to new adventures.....
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